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Brain reset.
Mar. 17th, 2006 09:22 amI need to alt-control-delete my brain, I think.
Spent last night practising for our St. Patrick's Night gig (tonight) with Mike. Tomorrow night is a gig in Peterborough. So is Sunday night. Mike called during the day with news of another booking in early May (which I really didn't want to do, but didn't see a good way out of), and had an email offering FFM a residency in Surrey! (Of all places...). Tom Laine called with more Higgledy Piggledy gigs for Tim, and some that involved Mike as well (he's one of the HP dep. bass players). Got a lead on a cute acoustic gig in the area too.
I complained to Tim that night - it doesn't feel like a hobby any more. It feels like work. Tim pointed out (very reasonably) that the reason it feels like work is that it *is* work, and there is absolutely nothing wrong in feeling like that. If I was getting up at 6.45am to get to the office every day, I'd feel like *that* was work, but wouldn't resent it, because that was just what was entailed.
I need to reset my brain to figure out that it's OK to not want to go and gig, and it's OK to think of gigs as work. Of course, the good thing about work is that it doesn't half feel nice when you get paid!
Spent last night practising for our St. Patrick's Night gig (tonight) with Mike. Tomorrow night is a gig in Peterborough. So is Sunday night. Mike called during the day with news of another booking in early May (which I really didn't want to do, but didn't see a good way out of), and had an email offering FFM a residency in Surrey! (Of all places...). Tom Laine called with more Higgledy Piggledy gigs for Tim, and some that involved Mike as well (he's one of the HP dep. bass players). Got a lead on a cute acoustic gig in the area too.
I complained to Tim that night - it doesn't feel like a hobby any more. It feels like work. Tim pointed out (very reasonably) that the reason it feels like work is that it *is* work, and there is absolutely nothing wrong in feeling like that. If I was getting up at 6.45am to get to the office every day, I'd feel like *that* was work, but wouldn't resent it, because that was just what was entailed.
I need to reset my brain to figure out that it's OK to not want to go and gig, and it's OK to think of gigs as work. Of course, the good thing about work is that it doesn't half feel nice when you get paid!
